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My new OB said to me today many things: I'm measuring a week ahead (I have a 36 week sized baby at 35 weeks), the babe is sideways- which is interesting I'm sure to no one but me, but my first born was sideways at birth, coincidence? Random? I wonder... I'm at a minus two station which doesn't surprise me. When I attempted to put on a pair of pants I've worn week in and week out I suddenly couldn't make them meet in the middle any longer so I thought I had dropped.   

Then she said I have to tell you something you are not going to like.

Of course you are.

She's going on vacation, well she didn't say that but she didn't not say it either, from June 26th - July 7th. My official due date: July 1st.

I'm screwed AGAIN.

Going from this doctor to another doctor does not cause me nearly as much anxienty as switching a month ago did, but dammit I had a plan. Finally, a plan. The plan? If I went into labor naturally by my due date, we would try for the VBAC. If I was overdue and facing an induction, I would go ahead and do the C Section. This is going to be a big, probably sideways baby and I'm not going to do an induction and long labor at 41 weeks or beyond only to be wheeled into surgery when my body is completly worn out again.

My plan? Out the window. She said I know you are struggling with this decision so I hope this influences you, but in a good way. If you think you want to do the C Section we should schedule it soon before she leaves. On June 24th. THREE AND HALF WEEKS FROM NOW. GAH.

Not ready. (Placing hands over my ears pretending I didn't even just think about that.)